It took a worldwide pandemic and Australia going into lock down, for me to hit the brakes and slow down enough to hear the stirring in my heart to re-ignite my dream. It was a period of ‘reset’ for me; like I had to have a reboot of my programming system.
If you’ve read my previous blog “Shattered Dreams to Purpose” I highlighted that my dream started back in 2000! What the hell! Where did those 20 years disappear to, and still I didn’t have any evidence of my dream in action. I picked up the vision in 2015 and then in 2016.... I found myself employed at PCYC Queensland. Brakes slammed on again, but this time stopping my dream from moving forward.
As I was employed as a full time Youth Worker with a semi-glorified title, I decided that it may be a conflict of interest to launch my business while working for this well-known Australian Youth Organisation. Being a person who values integrity, I knew it was the right thing to do. The bonus was the organisation aligned with my personal values. I’d still be empowering young people, gaining invaluable experience and extra skills along the way. I constantly told my friends and family how much I loved my job, as it ticked many boxes for me.
However, I was 100% in my comfort zone, cruising along, not really being stretched or challenged. There were a number of times I’d hear that little voice in the back of my head, saying “you’ve gone to sleep; you’re like a walking zombie; where has your creativity gone”. I was being internally challenged, yet refused to listen. Even on the day that the Queensland State Government enforced closures of many businesses including PCYC, I said to my boss, “I’m not going anywhere. I’m staying with the organisation until I retire”.
Interesting isn’t it?
The more we find comfort in our needs and wants, we start to compromise on some of our bigger dreams. The more complacent we become, the less urgent we are to step out and do something radical. We sacrifice what we really want, for comfort and security and before we know it, our life has passed by with all those dreams still trapped inside. All the dreams you could have offered the world, dying and being buried with you.
One of my favourite quotes is "Don't die with your music still in you" (Dr. Wayne Dwyer). This quote harmonises with me as I've been known to say “I want to live my life with no regrets, giving it my absolute best, leaving a legacy”.
So what happened?
Here are three fundamental things that I think contributed to my zombie-like, going with the flow state:
1. Lost vision and clarity, resulting in unclear intentional goals
2. Uncommitted daily quite time; meditating, reflecting and journalling.
3. Lack of intent; discontinued exploring imperative questions like “is what I’m doing moving me closer to my desired future?” “If not, what do I need to be intentionally doing?”
Now that I’m back at work, full-time at PCYC, I’m trying super hard to keep these practices in place, so that I don’t lose another 20 years and I continue to work away at my dream. I realise it will require sacrifice, particularly my weekends, but I know it will be worth every bit of it. When I coach young people and their lights come on, so do mine.
I absolutely love it and it fuels me to MAX! This is when you know you are exactly where you need to be, doing what you need to do, knowing your life has purpose and your existence it not being wasted. You can get to the end of your life saying “I have no regrets”.
Are you just going with the flow and stopped living intentionally?
Do you still have a song in your heart that the world needs to hear?
Has it been pushed down and forgotten?
Don't you be the one to die with the music still in you!
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